For most of my life night time was both my friend and enemy but today I would like to focus on the friendship I had with it. When I was trying hard to hide who I was I used the night to sharpen my feelings. As I went along all my senses were heightened. The darkness would awaken my imagination and ever so silently it would cause me to abandon my defenses. Helpless to my dreams I would dare to explore what I was feeling.
Every night, slowly its splendor would overtake the light. I would grasp at my tender senses and let go more and more each night but while asking if I trusted it. I would tell myself to close my eyes, only then will my eyes see the truth. In the light, I didn’t like the truth I saw but in the dark, it was easier to pretend and see what the truth ought to be.
Softly with a deafening silence, it would grab hold and caress me as it ever so secretly would possess me. My eyes would close and I would hear that voice screaming to get out. I would open my mind and let my dreams and fantasies unwind and express themselves. In the darkness, I could not fight it. A whole new world would open before my closed eyes. Not the light but the darkness would awaken me…!
Every night I needed to close my eyes, so I could start my journey to my wondrous and strange new world. As I closed my eyes all the thoughts of the world I knew before would leave. Close your eyes and let the night set you free cause then and it’s only then, that she belonged to me.
I would lay in bed, floating, and falling as the intoxication of the night would touch me, trust me I would savor each sensation I would feel as I would let the dreams begin. Never again was I afraid to let the darker side of each day to begin. The power of the night would set me free.
Then one day the night was gone! I was left to no longer dream. It was time to wake up and make my dreams come true. So here I stand in the light of day living my dreams. No longer needing the night to experience my dreams, no longer do I live in the darkness, but the light of day.Tweet #TransHopeUnited