Out of The Darkness, Into The Light…!

For most of my life night time was both my friend and enemy but today I would like to focus on the friendship I had with it. When I was trying hard to hide who I was I used the night to sharpen my feelings. As I went along all my senses were heightened. The darkness would awaken my imagination and ever so silently it would cause me to abandon my defenses. Helpless to my dreams I would dare to explore what I was feeling.

Every night, slowly its splendor would overtake the light. I would grasp at my tender senses and let go more and more each night but while asking if I trusted it. I would tell myself to close my eyes, only then will my eyes see the truth. In the light, I didn’t like the truth I saw but in the dark, it was easier to pretend and see what the truth ought to be.

Softly with a deafening silence, it would grab hold and caress me as it ever so secretly would possess me. My eyes would close and I would hear that voice screaming to get out. I would open my mind and let my dreams and fantasies unwind and express themselves. In the darkness, I could not fight it. A whole new world would open before my closed eyes. Not the light but the darkness would awaken me…!

Every night I needed to close my eyes, so I could start my journey to my wondrous and strange new world. As I closed my eyes all the thoughts of the world I knew before would leave. Close your eyes and let the night set you free cause then and it’s only then, that she belonged to me.

I would lay in bed, floating, and falling as the intoxication of the night would touch me, trust me I would savor each sensation I would feel as I would let the dreams begin. Never again was I afraid to let the darker side of each day to begin. The power of the night would set me free.

Then one day the night was gone! I was left to no longer dream. It was time to wake up and make my dreams come true. So here I stand in the light of day living my dreams. No longer needing the night to experience my dreams, no longer do I live in the darkness, but the light of day.

Melissa Segebarth
U.S. Community Support Team ? Den Mother at TransHope United
Missa, 52 is an MTF Transsexual who found herself later in life. She does her best to help others in their times of need. In her professional life she works at the information desk in a retirement community and as a beauty salon receptionist. She works as on our community management team at TransHope and also serves as an administrator for several other transgender support groups on Facebook. She is also a founder for two other support groups, along with being an activist within her state. Her activism goals are to change laws and views of how the transgender community is looked at. She has also conducted work on talk shows on the radio, T.V. and the internet.
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Missa, 52 is an MTF Transsexual who found herself later in life. She does her best to help others in their times of need. In her professional life she works at the information desk in a retirement community and as a beauty salon receptionist. She works as on our community management team at TransHope and also serves as an administrator for several other transgender support groups on Facebook. She is also a founder for two other support groups, along with being an activist within her state. Her activism goals are to change laws and views of how the transgender community is looked at. She has also conducted work on talk shows on the radio, T.V. and the internet.